Can I just say that I love music.

Sometimes I just don't know what I'd do without it.

and this song is just perfect.

Jilian Linklater (click meeeeee) =]

I Don't Need You Anymore
(Lyrics)

I thought you were different but I was wrong
Thought we were more than this
Thought we would sit and reminisce
It was a lie to you
Was I just A lie to you?
Because everything that I gave was true

But now you're here
Begging me please
But we both know you're not really sorry
Because I've been here before
It was me right
Not this time

Don't come back around here anymore
All I need is for you to walk back out that door
It won't hurt nearly as bad this time
Why's it so hard for you to leave
When everything that I am is not what you need
Please don't say you're sorry
You're doing me a favor for once
'Cus I don't need you anymore

You didn't mean it when you said you loved me
That flower wasn't even real
Do you even know how true love feels?

.....
....

I feel so stupid for keeping everything you ever gave to me
I feel so stupid for keeping that box beneath my bed
It didn't mean anything
It didn't mean anything to you

Don't come back around here anymore
All I need is for you to walk back out that door
It won't hurt nearly as bad this time
Why's it so hard for you to leave
When everything that I am was never what you needed
Please don't say you're sorry
You're doing me a favor this time
'Cus I don't need you anymore

Never Knew by The Rocket Summer

I.

Love.

The.

Rocket.

Summer.

Bryce.

Avary.

Is.

Mah.

Boyyyyy.

I just ran into a few someones today
Someones that I never really knew
And I used to think how I had them all so figured out

But no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
And now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for whats true

So I'm burning the thoughts of the things that I once said
Because you tore down the walls that the world has put inside my head
And I just get sick of things that we think, we think we know

And no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
And now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for whats true

So take me and save me and change me and then make me
And embrace me and then brave my heart for you
No, No, 'cause I can't go on without you
And it's time for something we never knew

And no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
and now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for whats true

And as they strolled along
My heart broke out in song
From all the things and the thoughts and assumptions that I had wrong
See now I'll be on my way to make this claim
I'll make it famous in everyway
I'll make it stay when I will say that...

No, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
And now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head for my heart for whats true [x3].

I just get sick of the things that we think, we think we know.

We don't have it all together.

We don't know what we're doing.

But that's exactly why Jesus forgives us.

My thanks to God is for just revealing to me that I was in sin.

He showed me I didn't want that.

Like for real...

I did not want to keep on that path.

It would've gotten worse,

something worse was bound to happen.

Thanks for breaking me now.

It still hurts to see it,

to watch them ruin their lives right now.

But Lord,

You were concerned about me then.

So thanks for bringing me to the place where all I could do was run to You.

Your power is made perfect in my weakness.

You brought me closer to You through all of this.

Thanks Lord.

I'm still mad that I never really knew you,

but because of that,

I know God.

How To Save A Life by The Fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let's...

Let's be real with each other.

Let's quit lying to each other.

Let's tell each other the truth.

Let's start encouraging one another.

Let's quit acting like we have it all together.

Let's be family.

That's what we call ourselves, right?

From now on,

I promise to just be real.

I'll quit acting like I have it all together.

I won't put on a mask and try acting like I have it all together.

Because who really does?

I just really feel like I've lost some close people in the last several months.

It makes me cry every time I think about it.

I just want people to be truthful with me.

I don't want them to tell me they have it all figured out.

Quit acting.

I know my friends.

I can tell if you are hurting.

And the reason I know is because I am that person who is all like "Oh, I'm fine" when something isn't.

I don't want to act anymore.

If I ask how you are it's because I CARE about you and LOVE you.

I hope people just know how loved and worthy they are.

I just want people to be real. With God, themselves, or with the people around them.

Please talk to me if there's a problem. I want to be there for you.

I want to be different.

I want to embrace the love God has given me,

through Himself and through the people He's given me.

Please don't just use me, though.

I'm really tired of people wanting me one minute but deciding they don't the next.

It makes me feel really unworthy.

and I don't think you made me feel that way, but that's how I feel.

I just don't want people to tell me they love me but then decide they don't want me anymore.

It's just really hard to believe people sometimes.

But let's be different.

Let's be a real family, okay?

Because I need people in my life just as much as everyone else.

So yeah. I love you all. So much more than you know!!!!!

So quit acting like a crazy person and be for real with your life. Shoo!

Haha =]

I'm finally back at Purdue!!!!

I love it here so much.

Mostly, though, I am so glad to be around my friends again.

They're my family away from my family,

even though I miss my family and cannot wait to see my parents next month!

I'm just so ready to go after God this year.

I want more of Him. I want to learn more. Soak in His presence more.

I don't want to let common things be common.

I'm ready to be different.

I'm ready to let things change.

To truly give all areas of my life to God.

It gets really tiring trying to hold onto things I have no control over so why wouldn't I want to give those things to the Person who does?

Psalm 73: 23-26

"Yet I am always with you;

you hold me by my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,

and afterward you will take me into glory,

Whom have I in heaven but you?

And earth has nothing I desire but you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,

but God is the strength of my heart

and my portion forever."

There's nothing I desire in this world but You.

Help that be a very real thing in my life, Lord.

18 DAYS!

OMGSHHHHHHH.

I really can't express how excited I am to get back to Purdue.

It's my home.

I miss all of you so much!!!!!!

You don't even know. SHOO!!!!!

Seriously.

God really has shown me how amazing my Chi Alpha/Purdue family is.

Going to see my old friends last week showed me a lot.

I realized how different our lives are...

I realized how much I love and cherish them...

but I realized I can't hold onto everybody in my life anymore. As sad as that makes me.

It hurt a lot...so much...

Jesus, why? I don't know.

but in the end it made me realize how I know for a FACT I am right where supposed to be.

I'm around the most edifying, encouraging, loving, and caring family at Purdue.

God just really confirmed and gave me a sense of peace about all of you.

I used to find reasons as to why I can't be really close to anyone there.

They wouldn't understand me like my old friends do...

They might not like me if they know my flaws...

Nobody likes me...

I'm afraid of change...

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAAAAAAH!

God changes for the good!

God is really showing me who I am. Who He is forming me to be.

I am glad you guys can be part of who God is forming me to be.

I can only hope that I can edify, encourage, love, and care for you like you do for me.

Thank you for doing those things for me.

Like everybody. God has really shown me how amazing you guys are.

Thank you for randomly calling me. Texting me. Messaging me.

It always made me smile.

Linda called me almost every week. I loved it. Thanks for checking up on me.

Thank you to the person who told me I'm not alone...

This person had NO idea what I was struggling with...but they told me Jesus wanted me to know I wasn't alone.

Gosh. You don't even know how much peace that brought me. Thank you.

Sigh. I love you guys.

I couldn't ask for a better family (other than my real family. I love them so much).

I am glad I got to be with my parents, my dog, my aunt, and my uncle this summer.

They are so important to me. and have helped me more than they know. Thank you for loving me and taking me as I am. Feisty and all =]

Thank you grandma for giving me pictures of my mom. I love them. I love her. I love you.

Thank you Stephanni, Shane, and Emily for being awesome role models and kick butt parents. Your daughters are beautiful. Your son is hansom.

Thank you to EVERYONE in my family. Even if I didn't specifically say your name. You know you're important to me. Really important.

and thanks to EVERYONE in my life.

I love you!

Hi friends...

I miss you.

I love you.

I'm praying for you.

Will you please pray for me?

Love,

Danielle

Redeeming Love

Redeeming Love is seriously my favorite book, next to the Bible, of course. Ugh. It tears me up so much! If you are hurting...or if you want more of God...if you need guidance...if you've struggled with an absent father and/or mother...read this! if you need to know how much God loves you...READ THIS!

If you are a girl and you are struggling with knowing the kind of husband God has for you...read this. If you feel unworthy because some guy has treated you horribly...read this. and same to the guysss!!!! I don't care if it looks like a girly book haha. To me, God really reveals how a wife and husband should be. The sacrifices each made. and God shows WAYYYY more than just marriage stuff. The story really shows how God's love is so redeeming!!!!!

Most of you do not know but I seriously have a problem with guys in my life. I don't think highly of the men God has put in my life because of the things I have seen in my past. I never thought any guy could be serious about Jesus. and I am truly sorry if you are a friend of mine who has felt that I don't love you or care for you because I do. God has been showing me how many amazing brothers I have at Chi Alpha. Thank you, all of you, for loving Jesus! and I have read this book before but I read it again because God has been showing me that I really need to overcome my not so nice feelings for my brothers and reading this book has brought so much healing.

Ugh, I looove this book. It will bring a lot of healing. The author of this book had writers block after she had been saved. She said she couldn't write anything and she kept asking God why! Then He gave her this story. It's based off the book of Hosea in the Bible. Forrrr real, this book was lead by the Holy Spirit so of course it beee amazing.

Haha. You all should read this!!! Girls and guys!!!! There are some people I really think should read this so I will talk to ya'll about it!! I will let you borrow mine if need be! =]=]=]=]=]=]

Finally!!

This is for all of you who keep giving me grief for not updating! Happy?! =]

Well yeah, New York is going pretty gravy. I've made some friends...visited some churches...and all sorts of fun stuff!

The church I go to the most is on Saturdays and it's called Cornerstone. They reflect mainly on music/worship. This church is where I've met all of the friends I hang out with. I like going for the music and to see people but I also wanted to find a Sunday church with preeeaaaching so I can know more about the word, word?! (if nobody got that...the second word was my ghetto attempt...)

One Sunday I went to a church called Green Mountain. I felt very blessed because when I walked in all these people started talking to me about Jesus and they were all so friendly. It was a good service ( very long...over 2 1/2 hours long...) but the music was very...old. haha. There weren't many youngsters my age so I was like "what the heck?! I like older people!" Haha. The sermon was amazing. So many things God has been speaking to me was touched on during the sermon. The pastor reflected on the Father Heart of God...woot! Haha. I knew Jesus had me there that Sunday to hear the sermon because I went into the rest of the week so ready to have more of Him! The pastor talked about how God needs to do things privately in our lives before we can begin to do anything public. It was a good revi because I keep asking God why He has me in NY away from everything I know and He continues to show me things. It's amazing.

There are a lot of things happening right now. I was very overwhelmed today because I just don't know what to do...how to change things...

Some things I was angry about at the beginning of summer. I thought "this is so stinkin' dumb!" but last night God really showed me how He has changed my heart about some of those things. I had to surrender something again last night. I was on the verge of crying and just asked God to take it! Take it away. Haha. Lord...PLEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAASE oh please! haha

Some people and certain things have caused me to be so heart broken and I know, without a doubt, that God is bringing me through a healing process this summer. The pastor also said "Difficulties in life are not meant to derail us but to develop us." God wants to take me further! Deeper! I am going through these difficulties so God can develop me. How loving is that? God is so loving and caring. Sigh. =]

Then this last Sunday I went to a church called Grace. It was big, like my home church. Everyone knew everyone and has their cliques. Nobody talked to me...It reminded me of how I always did that at my old church and it wasn't very Godly of me. Idk. The sermon was good. The pastor talked about Esther and how God purposely had her married to Kind Xerxes for "such a time as this" (Esther 4:14). The pastor asked us if we are in seasons of our lives for "such a time as this." Am I in NY for such a time as this? Yes! =] My friend also said I probably won't know all of the reasons until I go back to school. Which is true.

Haha so yeah. God is good. Even though I feel broken, He is going to comfort me! Well shoo, He already is =] Yay Jesus!

I miss you all very much!! More than you know. I am definitely learning how blessed I am for all of you in my life! =]

So many times people remember the verse in the Bible that says God is going to give us the desires of our hearts. Lately in my walk with God, He's been asking me to give some things to Him that I really really want. One thing I do not want taken away from me. But I walked into this church and they emphasized giving all of ourselves to God. The pastor said we cannot give God 95% of who we are but tell Him to not touch the other 5%. I always tell God to take all of me, have all of me, but 5% I refuse to hand over. That 5% makes all the difference in my walk with Him.

Sometimes I wonder why we need to surrender things? I mean, I know the reason. We need to show God we want Him more than other things. But truly, obedience is better than sacrifice but even in our obedience, we WILL have to sacrifice things. Fasting for example. One may be walking in obedience with Jesus but he may ask us to fast something we truly love in our lives. Just because I am obedient doesn't mean I won't have to sacrifice anything, it just means truly our obedience and willingness to follow the Lord is greater than anything else.

Like Abraham and Isaac, God asked Abraham to sacrifice His own son and as soon as He was going to do it, an angel appeared and provided another sacrifice. Because Abraham walked in obedience, his sacrifice to the Lord was so small because what God really wanted was to see his obedience. Really, all we have to sacrifice to the Lord is so small. Sometimes God wants to know if we are willing to sacrifice what is most important to us.

Sometimes people wonder why we need to sacrifice important things in our lives when the Bible says God will give us our desires. Well...so many people look at the whole entire verse incorrectly.

Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."

We need to delight ourselves in the Lord, let His desires become our desires, and then He will give us the desires of our hearts because our desires SHOULD be His desires.

37:5 "Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun."

Okay so delight in the Lord. Commit my way to the Lord. THEN He will give me the desires of my heart and make my righteousness and justice shine. That is walking in obedience.

Okay so big long tangent. Sorry if you're lost or if it doesn't make sense but this is what God is showing me. I need to be obedient, delight in Him, commit myself in His ways, and wait patiently for Him (verse 7 and 34). In my obedience to Jesus, He will give me His heart, and when He does, His desires will be my own, and then He will give me the desires of His heart because they are His desires too. Ahh!!! A big, long, messy revi! Haha.

In conclusion....dun dun dun....

What 5% of your life are you holding back from God? What is an area of your life that you need to truly, 100%, walk in obedience at? Are you willing to show God that all we have to sacrifice is so small compared to all He has to truly offer? I had to surrender something recently, and to me is seems so big and devastating, but to God, the sacrifice is so small, especially when I know and He knows that I am walking in obedience.

Home in New York!

Friiiieeeends,It has been awhile since I have been on. Lately, the only thing I do is sleeeeeeeeep! Which is glorious! Haha.
So basically, God has already been sharing some pretty groovy stuff with me because He is just cool like that! I read Isaiah 14 a few days ago but I haven't been on long enough to blog about it yet, but now I am...so yay. haha =]

Isaiah 14:13-17
You said in your heart,
"I will ascend to heaven;
I will raise my throne,
above the stars of God;
I will sit enthroned on the mount of assembly,
on the utmost heights of the sacred mountain.
I will ascend above the tops of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High."
But you are brought down to the grave,
to the depths of the pit.

Those who see you stare at you,
they ponder your fate:
"Is this the man who shook the earth
and made kingdoms tremble,
the man who made the world a desert,
who overthrew its cities
and would not let his captives go home?"


I just love how the devil thought he would rise above God and become the mighty one but he totally failed because no person or thing can rise above God! Ah. I love the part that says we will stare him in the face and ponder his fate. I truly believe one day we will stare at the devil and say "Really?! I was afraid of YOU?!" and then we'll just laugh because truly, he is nothing!! I just love that he is nothing and he really has NO power over us!!!

Ponder means to consider something deeply and thoroughly. We will deeply and thoroughly consider why we were ever afraid of him! Because we really shouldn't be afraid. I think even now we should ponder his fate and realize he is totally useless and dumb and idiotic and just eww. Like, seriously, we have NOTHING to be afraid of because we serve a God who offers us freedom, protection, grace, LOVE, and everything else! In Christ Jesus, we have all of those things! The same power that conquered the grave lives in all of us and Jesus totally overpowers the devil...so we overpower the devil! Especially since he is so tiny and we will laugh in his face one day (and we should be now).


So yeah, that is what God been putting on my heart lately! I encourage you all to read all of Isaiah 14 because it's amazing!! =


Miss and love you all!

Only You, Lord

Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

You should see the view
When it’s only You

I love you, Jesus.

Milk and Pop tarts...

are so delicious together. I dislike eating pop tarts without milk. like...there's no point in eating them then! Ha ha =]

Any who...

Last night at Chi Alpha was great. I am totally afraid of being alone this summer. I mean, I am so excited to be in NY...I'm only a few hours away from NYC and Boston. Like, how cool is that? And I get to be with my parents who I miss so much! But I don't know anyone with like-minded faith where I live. I am an exhorter...so I like being around people. It frightens me to be away from all of you but God totally knew I'd be at Chi Alpha last night =] I feel peaceful about it. I'll probably still cry my face off when I say bye to everyone but that is aight haha.

So, I love all of you, my amazing friends and family. I know I need accountability this summer but if I kind of cut myself off from a few of you, I am sorry. I need to let go of some attachments I have with some people. It's going to be hard...but I know God is faithful =]=]=]

So here's to the summer! I hope all of you come back totally radical after God! I know Malaysia and the Philippines are going to be completely different places =]

Hello friends =]

So...I decided to make a blog for the summer =]

God has called me to be in NY, away from all of you so I am making "All I need is You" my theme song for the summer. Because God has called me to show Him the truth in that. I am excited to hear everything He wants to say to me this summer! I know He didn't call me to be there with my parents all summer for no reason so praise Him and all He has planned!

So now, I need to figure out what I am doing with this thingy ma bobber. Ha ha =]