So many times people remember the verse in the Bible that says God is going to give us the desires of our hearts. Lately in my walk with God, He's been asking me to give some things to Him that I really really want. One thing I do not want taken away from me. But I walked into this church and they emphasized giving all of ourselves to God. The pastor said we cannot give God 95% of who we are but tell Him to not touch the other 5%. I always tell God to take all of me, have all of me, but 5% I refuse to hand over. That 5% makes all the difference in my walk with Him.

Sometimes I wonder why we need to surrender things? I mean, I know the reason. We need to show God we want Him more than other things. But truly, obedience is better than sacrifice but even in our obedience, we WILL have to sacrifice things. Fasting for example. One may be walking in obedience with Jesus but he may ask us to fast something we truly love in our lives. Just because I am obedient doesn't mean I won't have to sacrifice anything, it just means truly our obedience and willingness to follow the Lord is greater than anything else.

Like Abraham and Isaac, God asked Abraham to sacrifice His own son and as soon as He was going to do it, an angel appeared and provided another sacrifice. Because Abraham walked in obedience, his sacrifice to the Lord was so small because what God really wanted was to see his obedience. Really, all we have to sacrifice to the Lord is so small. Sometimes God wants to know if we are willing to sacrifice what is most important to us.

Sometimes people wonder why we need to sacrifice important things in our lives when the Bible says God will give us our desires. Well...so many people look at the whole entire verse incorrectly.

Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."

We need to delight ourselves in the Lord, let His desires become our desires, and then He will give us the desires of our hearts because our desires SHOULD be His desires.

37:5 "Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun."

Okay so delight in the Lord. Commit my way to the Lord. THEN He will give me the desires of my heart and make my righteousness and justice shine. That is walking in obedience.

Okay so big long tangent. Sorry if you're lost or if it doesn't make sense but this is what God is showing me. I need to be obedient, delight in Him, commit myself in His ways, and wait patiently for Him (verse 7 and 34). In my obedience to Jesus, He will give me His heart, and when He does, His desires will be my own, and then He will give me the desires of His heart because they are His desires too. Ahh!!! A big, long, messy revi! Haha.

In conclusion....dun dun dun....

What 5% of your life are you holding back from God? What is an area of your life that you need to truly, 100%, walk in obedience at? Are you willing to show God that all we have to sacrifice is so small compared to all He has to truly offer? I had to surrender something recently, and to me is seems so big and devastating, but to God, the sacrifice is so small, especially when I know and He knows that I am walking in obedience.

Home in New York!

Friiiieeeends,It has been awhile since I have been on. Lately, the only thing I do is sleeeeeeeeep! Which is glorious! Haha.
So basically, God has already been sharing some pretty groovy stuff with me because He is just cool like that! I read Isaiah 14 a few days ago but I haven't been on long enough to blog about it yet, but now I am...so yay. haha =]

Isaiah 14:13-17
You said in your heart,
"I will ascend to heaven;
I will raise my throne,
above the stars of God;
I will sit enthroned on the mount of assembly,
on the utmost heights of the sacred mountain.
I will ascend above the tops of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High."
But you are brought down to the grave,
to the depths of the pit.

Those who see you stare at you,
they ponder your fate:
"Is this the man who shook the earth
and made kingdoms tremble,
the man who made the world a desert,
who overthrew its cities
and would not let his captives go home?"


I just love how the devil thought he would rise above God and become the mighty one but he totally failed because no person or thing can rise above God! Ah. I love the part that says we will stare him in the face and ponder his fate. I truly believe one day we will stare at the devil and say "Really?! I was afraid of YOU?!" and then we'll just laugh because truly, he is nothing!! I just love that he is nothing and he really has NO power over us!!!

Ponder means to consider something deeply and thoroughly. We will deeply and thoroughly consider why we were ever afraid of him! Because we really shouldn't be afraid. I think even now we should ponder his fate and realize he is totally useless and dumb and idiotic and just eww. Like, seriously, we have NOTHING to be afraid of because we serve a God who offers us freedom, protection, grace, LOVE, and everything else! In Christ Jesus, we have all of those things! The same power that conquered the grave lives in all of us and Jesus totally overpowers the devil...so we overpower the devil! Especially since he is so tiny and we will laugh in his face one day (and we should be now).


So yeah, that is what God been putting on my heart lately! I encourage you all to read all of Isaiah 14 because it's amazing!! =


Miss and love you all!

Only You, Lord

Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

You should see the view
When it’s only You

I love you, Jesus.

Milk and Pop tarts...

are so delicious together. I dislike eating pop tarts without milk. like...there's no point in eating them then! Ha ha =]

Any who...

Last night at Chi Alpha was great. I am totally afraid of being alone this summer. I mean, I am so excited to be in NY...I'm only a few hours away from NYC and Boston. Like, how cool is that? And I get to be with my parents who I miss so much! But I don't know anyone with like-minded faith where I live. I am an exhorter...so I like being around people. It frightens me to be away from all of you but God totally knew I'd be at Chi Alpha last night =] I feel peaceful about it. I'll probably still cry my face off when I say bye to everyone but that is aight haha.

So, I love all of you, my amazing friends and family. I know I need accountability this summer but if I kind of cut myself off from a few of you, I am sorry. I need to let go of some attachments I have with some people. It's going to be hard...but I know God is faithful =]=]=]

So here's to the summer! I hope all of you come back totally radical after God! I know Malaysia and the Philippines are going to be completely different places =]