Redeeming Love

Redeeming Love is seriously my favorite book, next to the Bible, of course. Ugh. It tears me up so much! If you are hurting...or if you want more of God...if you need guidance...if you've struggled with an absent father and/or mother...read this! if you need to know how much God loves you...READ THIS!

If you are a girl and you are struggling with knowing the kind of husband God has for you...read this. If you feel unworthy because some guy has treated you horribly...read this. and same to the guysss!!!! I don't care if it looks like a girly book haha. To me, God really reveals how a wife and husband should be. The sacrifices each made. and God shows WAYYYY more than just marriage stuff. The story really shows how God's love is so redeeming!!!!!

Most of you do not know but I seriously have a problem with guys in my life. I don't think highly of the men God has put in my life because of the things I have seen in my past. I never thought any guy could be serious about Jesus. and I am truly sorry if you are a friend of mine who has felt that I don't love you or care for you because I do. God has been showing me how many amazing brothers I have at Chi Alpha. Thank you, all of you, for loving Jesus! and I have read this book before but I read it again because God has been showing me that I really need to overcome my not so nice feelings for my brothers and reading this book has brought so much healing.

Ugh, I looove this book. It will bring a lot of healing. The author of this book had writers block after she had been saved. She said she couldn't write anything and she kept asking God why! Then He gave her this story. It's based off the book of Hosea in the Bible. Forrrr real, this book was lead by the Holy Spirit so of course it beee amazing.

Haha. You all should read this!!! Girls and guys!!!! There are some people I really think should read this so I will talk to ya'll about it!! I will let you borrow mine if need be! =]=]=]=]=]=]

Finally!!

This is for all of you who keep giving me grief for not updating! Happy?! =]

Well yeah, New York is going pretty gravy. I've made some friends...visited some churches...and all sorts of fun stuff!

The church I go to the most is on Saturdays and it's called Cornerstone. They reflect mainly on music/worship. This church is where I've met all of the friends I hang out with. I like going for the music and to see people but I also wanted to find a Sunday church with preeeaaaching so I can know more about the word, word?! (if nobody got that...the second word was my ghetto attempt...)

One Sunday I went to a church called Green Mountain. I felt very blessed because when I walked in all these people started talking to me about Jesus and they were all so friendly. It was a good service ( very long...over 2 1/2 hours long...) but the music was very...old. haha. There weren't many youngsters my age so I was like "what the heck?! I like older people!" Haha. The sermon was amazing. So many things God has been speaking to me was touched on during the sermon. The pastor reflected on the Father Heart of God...woot! Haha. I knew Jesus had me there that Sunday to hear the sermon because I went into the rest of the week so ready to have more of Him! The pastor talked about how God needs to do things privately in our lives before we can begin to do anything public. It was a good revi because I keep asking God why He has me in NY away from everything I know and He continues to show me things. It's amazing.

There are a lot of things happening right now. I was very overwhelmed today because I just don't know what to do...how to change things...

Some things I was angry about at the beginning of summer. I thought "this is so stinkin' dumb!" but last night God really showed me how He has changed my heart about some of those things. I had to surrender something again last night. I was on the verge of crying and just asked God to take it! Take it away. Haha. Lord...PLEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAASE oh please! haha

Some people and certain things have caused me to be so heart broken and I know, without a doubt, that God is bringing me through a healing process this summer. The pastor also said "Difficulties in life are not meant to derail us but to develop us." God wants to take me further! Deeper! I am going through these difficulties so God can develop me. How loving is that? God is so loving and caring. Sigh. =]

Then this last Sunday I went to a church called Grace. It was big, like my home church. Everyone knew everyone and has their cliques. Nobody talked to me...It reminded me of how I always did that at my old church and it wasn't very Godly of me. Idk. The sermon was good. The pastor talked about Esther and how God purposely had her married to Kind Xerxes for "such a time as this" (Esther 4:14). The pastor asked us if we are in seasons of our lives for "such a time as this." Am I in NY for such a time as this? Yes! =] My friend also said I probably won't know all of the reasons until I go back to school. Which is true.

Haha so yeah. God is good. Even though I feel broken, He is going to comfort me! Well shoo, He already is =] Yay Jesus!

I miss you all very much!! More than you know. I am definitely learning how blessed I am for all of you in my life! =]