I'm finally back at Purdue!!!!

I love it here so much.

Mostly, though, I am so glad to be around my friends again.

They're my family away from my family,

even though I miss my family and cannot wait to see my parents next month!

I'm just so ready to go after God this year.

I want more of Him. I want to learn more. Soak in His presence more.

I don't want to let common things be common.

I'm ready to be different.

I'm ready to let things change.

To truly give all areas of my life to God.

It gets really tiring trying to hold onto things I have no control over so why wouldn't I want to give those things to the Person who does?

Psalm 73: 23-26

"Yet I am always with you;

you hold me by my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,

and afterward you will take me into glory,

Whom have I in heaven but you?

And earth has nothing I desire but you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,

but God is the strength of my heart

and my portion forever."

There's nothing I desire in this world but You.

Help that be a very real thing in my life, Lord.

18 DAYS!

OMGSHHHHHHH.

I really can't express how excited I am to get back to Purdue.

It's my home.

I miss all of you so much!!!!!!

You don't even know. SHOO!!!!!

Seriously.

God really has shown me how amazing my Chi Alpha/Purdue family is.

Going to see my old friends last week showed me a lot.

I realized how different our lives are...

I realized how much I love and cherish them...

but I realized I can't hold onto everybody in my life anymore. As sad as that makes me.

It hurt a lot...so much...

Jesus, why? I don't know.

but in the end it made me realize how I know for a FACT I am right where supposed to be.

I'm around the most edifying, encouraging, loving, and caring family at Purdue.

God just really confirmed and gave me a sense of peace about all of you.

I used to find reasons as to why I can't be really close to anyone there.

They wouldn't understand me like my old friends do...

They might not like me if they know my flaws...

Nobody likes me...

I'm afraid of change...

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAAAAAAH!

God changes for the good!

God is really showing me who I am. Who He is forming me to be.

I am glad you guys can be part of who God is forming me to be.

I can only hope that I can edify, encourage, love, and care for you like you do for me.

Thank you for doing those things for me.

Like everybody. God has really shown me how amazing you guys are.

Thank you for randomly calling me. Texting me. Messaging me.

It always made me smile.

Linda called me almost every week. I loved it. Thanks for checking up on me.

Thank you to the person who told me I'm not alone...

This person had NO idea what I was struggling with...but they told me Jesus wanted me to know I wasn't alone.

Gosh. You don't even know how much peace that brought me. Thank you.

Sigh. I love you guys.

I couldn't ask for a better family (other than my real family. I love them so much).

I am glad I got to be with my parents, my dog, my aunt, and my uncle this summer.

They are so important to me. and have helped me more than they know. Thank you for loving me and taking me as I am. Feisty and all =]

Thank you grandma for giving me pictures of my mom. I love them. I love her. I love you.

Thank you Stephanni, Shane, and Emily for being awesome role models and kick butt parents. Your daughters are beautiful. Your son is hansom.

Thank you to EVERYONE in my family. Even if I didn't specifically say your name. You know you're important to me. Really important.

and thanks to EVERYONE in my life.

I love you!