Can I just say that I love music.

Sometimes I just don't know what I'd do without it.

and this song is just perfect.

Jilian Linklater (click meeeeee) =]

I Don't Need You Anymore
(Lyrics)

I thought you were different but I was wrong
Thought we were more than this
Thought we would sit and reminisce
It was a lie to you
Was I just A lie to you?
Because everything that I gave was true

But now you're here
Begging me please
But we both know you're not really sorry
Because I've been here before
It was me right
Not this time

Don't come back around here anymore
All I need is for you to walk back out that door
It won't hurt nearly as bad this time
Why's it so hard for you to leave
When everything that I am is not what you need
Please don't say you're sorry
You're doing me a favor for once
'Cus I don't need you anymore

You didn't mean it when you said you loved me
That flower wasn't even real
Do you even know how true love feels?

.....
....

I feel so stupid for keeping everything you ever gave to me
I feel so stupid for keeping that box beneath my bed
It didn't mean anything
It didn't mean anything to you

Don't come back around here anymore
All I need is for you to walk back out that door
It won't hurt nearly as bad this time
Why's it so hard for you to leave
When everything that I am was never what you needed
Please don't say you're sorry
You're doing me a favor this time
'Cus I don't need you anymore

Never Knew by The Rocket Summer

I.

Love.

The.

Rocket.

Summer.

Bryce.

Avary.

Is.

Mah.

Boyyyyy.

I just ran into a few someones today
Someones that I never really knew
And I used to think how I had them all so figured out

But no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
And now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for whats true

So I'm burning the thoughts of the things that I once said
Because you tore down the walls that the world has put inside my head
And I just get sick of things that we think, we think we know

And no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
And now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for whats true

So take me and save me and change me and then make me
And embrace me and then brave my heart for you
No, No, 'cause I can't go on without you
And it's time for something we never knew

And no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
and now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for whats true

And as they strolled along
My heart broke out in song
From all the things and the thoughts and assumptions that I had wrong
See now I'll be on my way to make this claim
I'll make it famous in everyway
I'll make it stay when I will say that...

No, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
And now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head for my heart for whats true [x3].

I just get sick of the things that we think, we think we know.

We don't have it all together.

We don't know what we're doing.

But that's exactly why Jesus forgives us.

My thanks to God is for just revealing to me that I was in sin.

He showed me I didn't want that.

Like for real...

I did not want to keep on that path.

It would've gotten worse,

something worse was bound to happen.

Thanks for breaking me now.

It still hurts to see it,

to watch them ruin their lives right now.

But Lord,

You were concerned about me then.

So thanks for bringing me to the place where all I could do was run to You.

Your power is made perfect in my weakness.

You brought me closer to You through all of this.

Thanks Lord.

I'm still mad that I never really knew you,

but because of that,

I know God.

How To Save A Life by The Fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let's...

Let's be real with each other.

Let's quit lying to each other.

Let's tell each other the truth.

Let's start encouraging one another.

Let's quit acting like we have it all together.

Let's be family.

That's what we call ourselves, right?

From now on,

I promise to just be real.

I'll quit acting like I have it all together.

I won't put on a mask and try acting like I have it all together.

Because who really does?

I just really feel like I've lost some close people in the last several months.

It makes me cry every time I think about it.

I just want people to be truthful with me.

I don't want them to tell me they have it all figured out.

Quit acting.

I know my friends.

I can tell if you are hurting.

And the reason I know is because I am that person who is all like "Oh, I'm fine" when something isn't.

I don't want to act anymore.

If I ask how you are it's because I CARE about you and LOVE you.

I hope people just know how loved and worthy they are.

I just want people to be real. With God, themselves, or with the people around them.

Please talk to me if there's a problem. I want to be there for you.

I want to be different.

I want to embrace the love God has given me,

through Himself and through the people He's given me.

Please don't just use me, though.

I'm really tired of people wanting me one minute but deciding they don't the next.

It makes me feel really unworthy.

and I don't think you made me feel that way, but that's how I feel.

I just don't want people to tell me they love me but then decide they don't want me anymore.

It's just really hard to believe people sometimes.

But let's be different.

Let's be a real family, okay?

Because I need people in my life just as much as everyone else.

So yeah. I love you all. So much more than you know!!!!!

So quit acting like a crazy person and be for real with your life. Shoo!

Haha =]

I'm finally back at Purdue!!!!

I love it here so much.

Mostly, though, I am so glad to be around my friends again.

They're my family away from my family,

even though I miss my family and cannot wait to see my parents next month!

I'm just so ready to go after God this year.

I want more of Him. I want to learn more. Soak in His presence more.

I don't want to let common things be common.

I'm ready to be different.

I'm ready to let things change.

To truly give all areas of my life to God.

It gets really tiring trying to hold onto things I have no control over so why wouldn't I want to give those things to the Person who does?

Psalm 73: 23-26

"Yet I am always with you;

you hold me by my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,

and afterward you will take me into glory,

Whom have I in heaven but you?

And earth has nothing I desire but you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,

but God is the strength of my heart

and my portion forever."

There's nothing I desire in this world but You.

Help that be a very real thing in my life, Lord.

18 DAYS!

OMGSHHHHHHH.

I really can't express how excited I am to get back to Purdue.

It's my home.

I miss all of you so much!!!!!!

You don't even know. SHOO!!!!!

Seriously.

God really has shown me how amazing my Chi Alpha/Purdue family is.

Going to see my old friends last week showed me a lot.

I realized how different our lives are...

I realized how much I love and cherish them...

but I realized I can't hold onto everybody in my life anymore. As sad as that makes me.

It hurt a lot...so much...

Jesus, why? I don't know.

but in the end it made me realize how I know for a FACT I am right where supposed to be.

I'm around the most edifying, encouraging, loving, and caring family at Purdue.

God just really confirmed and gave me a sense of peace about all of you.

I used to find reasons as to why I can't be really close to anyone there.

They wouldn't understand me like my old friends do...

They might not like me if they know my flaws...

Nobody likes me...

I'm afraid of change...

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAAAAAAH!

God changes for the good!

God is really showing me who I am. Who He is forming me to be.

I am glad you guys can be part of who God is forming me to be.

I can only hope that I can edify, encourage, love, and care for you like you do for me.

Thank you for doing those things for me.

Like everybody. God has really shown me how amazing you guys are.

Thank you for randomly calling me. Texting me. Messaging me.

It always made me smile.

Linda called me almost every week. I loved it. Thanks for checking up on me.

Thank you to the person who told me I'm not alone...

This person had NO idea what I was struggling with...but they told me Jesus wanted me to know I wasn't alone.

Gosh. You don't even know how much peace that brought me. Thank you.

Sigh. I love you guys.

I couldn't ask for a better family (other than my real family. I love them so much).

I am glad I got to be with my parents, my dog, my aunt, and my uncle this summer.

They are so important to me. and have helped me more than they know. Thank you for loving me and taking me as I am. Feisty and all =]

Thank you grandma for giving me pictures of my mom. I love them. I love her. I love you.

Thank you Stephanni, Shane, and Emily for being awesome role models and kick butt parents. Your daughters are beautiful. Your son is hansom.

Thank you to EVERYONE in my family. Even if I didn't specifically say your name. You know you're important to me. Really important.

and thanks to EVERYONE in my life.

I love you!

Hi friends...

I miss you.

I love you.

I'm praying for you.

Will you please pray for me?

Love,

Danielle